Happy 2012!

It's 1:55am on the 1st of January 2012 and I'm blogging. Blogging at the start of the year!!! HA! Well, I can't sleep yet so maybe this will help me drain all my energy and sleep after.

It's already 2012!! At least, to some countries like Australia, Japan, Philippines (where I am), Guam, Malaysia, Singapore and other Asian countries. To those countries whose calendars are still set on 2011, well... we are the future. And nothing's changed. No flying cars yet. heh.

My family welcomed 2012 the usual way. We don't really go somewhere else. We just get out of the house, join my grandma, aunts, uncles and cousins, make noise, light some firecrackers and look at aerial fireworks if there's any (and as the years go by, there has been a lot of aerial fireworks that we see in our village). After that, we go back inside our houses and sleep. It's the usual thing and it's become pretty boring for me actually. I want to experience a different kind of celebrating New Year. Like the one's in Timesquare, NY where the ball will drop. Or the one in Sydney, Paris, London... Or if not that, celebrate it with all my friends and their other friends.. And then have someone kiss me at 12mn. (I'm being over-sentimental since yesterday. Don't ask me why. I don't know either.) That. I want that. 

I just want things to change this year. And if I celebrate it like that, I have this thought that everything will really change. Maybe it's too movie-like but don't we all wish that too? I know it's not just me. ;)

Wow. This turned out to be a very sappy post. This is what happens when you know that you have to sleep but you can't sleep and so you write some stuff like this. Anyway, all of these are things that has been running in my mind every new year's eve. I feel like I need to write it down for.. emotional release. lolol Alright, I have to end this now. My brain's shutting down and it is evident by all of the things I just typed in the last two paragraphs.

Happy New Year darlings!

-F.M.W.

♫ A Very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! ♫

Christmas is over and New Year is just in a few days. Actually, just 2 more days! I am going to say that I am excited for 2012. I can feel that it's going to be a very great year for me. And maybe for others, too. 

2011 has not been very good to me. I've been cranky most of the time because of some factors (better not say it). But it's a part of me and still, there were some things that made this year a good one and I want to remember it. So I'll go back at the start of the year and try to recall what happened to me at that time.

JANUARY 2011- MARCH 2011.

What I did most at this month was learn to drive. Mum was going to buy a car and someone must learn immediately so the car can be used. My uncle and elder cousin taught me how to drive. They even accompanied me and my mum when we bought the car last February 18. And on the last week of February, mum enrolled me in a driving school (although I can already drive, thanks to my uncle and cousin) and on the first week of March, I got my driver's license! Ever since that time, I was the 'driver' of our family (it's just me, my mum and my brother). My brother got his student driver's license (upto now) but he can't still drive alone. This was also the time when my mum allowed me to bring the car to my friend's house but she told me that I am not allowed to go anywhere else except there. But my friends were very pushy and we ended up going to Eastwood City, Libis. hrhr. And lastly, I turned 22 on the 31st of March! Mum and I went to the grocery in the morning and bought a cake and a shirt. Then I went home and celebrated it with my relatives while watching an Azkals game. haha! Oh! I also met people who are fans of Azkals. heehee.

APRIL 2011- JUNE 2011.

Since I was already an Azkals fan at this time, my new found friends and I went to the Meet and Greet with James and Phil Younghusband at Greenbelt 5 last April 2. And really, I HAD FUN. Seeing my football player crush was probably the best gift ever. Not only did I see him (and his brother), but they also signed autographs for me, I was able to hug them both and boy, I won't forget that little 'quiz' for the fans to test if they know the Younghusband brothers. Whoever answers the question right will get a price and the price will be given by either James or Phil. The host asked what is James' favorite movie. I raised  my hand but the host called someone else first. I was actually wishing that he/she (I can't remember) will give the wrong answer and he/she did! hahaha! So I raised my hand again and the host called me and I went closer to the host and answered Titanic. I was right!!! Well, I know I was right. Anyway, James gave me the price and then he pulled me closer for a hug and then kissed me on the cheek. *lefaint* I heard the kiss sound baby! I was in a daze after that and I was smiling from ear to ear. hahaha! 

My family on my mother's side also went out on a weekend 'vacation.' We were almost complete and it was fun! We went to a beach in Laiya, Batangas and we had lots of foooooods!!! I even experienced Banana Boat. haha! It was scary and exciting at the same time but I don't think I'll do it again. My cousin accidentally hit my left eye when we were  thrown in the water. :))

Moving on... this was also the time when my love for books was rekindled. See, I didn't had the time to read books when I was in college because of so many things to do as a student nurse and I was lucky I got to read the Twilight  novels (but it was on my senior year). Anyway... It was Holy Wednesday and I went to a book store and bought Fallen. I bought it because the cover looks really good and the synopsis was interesting. I also went off internet for 1 week because it's a Holy Week and I needed something to do (and to forget all the sadness since me and my friends had a falling out). This was also the time when we used our car during the Visita Iglesia and I drove. It was vey tiring. My legs hurt!

On May, we did a lot of preparations for my grandmother's 80th birthday and it was a success! I got to see my grandfather's (my grandma's husband) brothers and sisters, my aunts and uncles and 2nd cousins! I never knew that our family on my mother's side is THAT big. 

By the end of the month, I reconciled with my friend. We were... uhm... enemies for over a year and things got better between us. And on June, well.. This was  a sad month. A lot of people passed away at this month and I always ended up going to a funeral. It's been a quiet month. Oh, and I still read. I mean, I don't think I'll ever stop reading since my love for books was rekindled. :)

JULY 2011-SEPTEMBER 2011.

As I recall, nothing much happened during these months. All I did was go to the gym, look for work, and celebrate my brother's birthday. On September, I started attending review classes for IELTS and it was also the same month when I learned that I can study overseas.

OCTOBER 2011-DECEMBER 2011.

I got a new phone. My Sony Ericsson W910i gave up on me. And then, I was still reviewing for my IELTS exam and I filed an exam for November. Pressure's on!

Also, I celebrated (?) Halloween at my aunt's house. This happens yearly. But my role there was just to chaperone my little cousins and niece and nephew as they go trick or treating. 

On November, well... Exam month. I am not going into details because I don't want to remember it. haha! But, well.. I am eligible to study overseas. That is what matters! And I am really excited about it. :D :D

This December, I went back to the gym. I gained weight during my review classes so.. I have to burn them all! I also get to see my 2 boy friends after almost a year of not seeing each other. It was fun. Then there's the Simbang Gabi (Misa de Gallo). I am proud to say that I completed it. :D I wasn't able to complete it last year because of reasons and I regret it. I am very happy that I completed it this year. 

And this Christmas, we went to my aunt's house...with my mother! She never went there during Christmas and it was a shock to most of my relatives when they saw my mum there. hehe. She's even planning to go there on January 1st! O.O

But what is really memorable for me this month is that my braces have been removed! After 10 years and 8 months of having them glued on my teeth. FINALLY! Later, I'm going back to the dentist to have my retainers. :D Soo excited!!

And there was my 2011. It wasn't really that exciting compared to last year. As I remember my friend, she called this year "uneventful" for her. And I have to agree with her. It was uneventful for me as well but there were still moments that I love about this year. Such as reconciling with my friend (friend for almost 13 years!) I understood what bringing your pride down and forgiveness meant this year. And that is something that I learned.

Looking forward to 2012!

-F.M.W.

Last Friday Night

Last Friday, I went out with 2 of my best boy friends in the world--I'm not exaggerating. Okay. Maybe a little.. A little more. Anyway, one of them celebrated his birthday and one of them was something more to me (let's call him Frodo. And the other one would be Bilbo. Excuse me for the code names. The trailer of The Hobbit just got out so...). See, we all started out as co-trainees in a hospital over a year ago. There were 15 of us in one shift and I was close to all of them but after our short-lived training, I grew closer to these 2 boys. We hang out, apply for jobs and text/call each other every day. Also, they have seen me at my worst and they didn't go anywhere. They are literally the bestest boy friends I have.

So about Frodo. I really didn't think he'd be that special to me. He was not just the best boy friend. He is something more... special. It all started when some jerk broke my heart (and I will not go into details because it sounds rather cheesy and annoying and I realized how stupid I was) and Frodo and Bilbo were there. But it was Frodo who I talked to a lot and he was the one who listened to my heart broken speeches (which I am now so ashamed of) and he didn't go anywhere. He stayed. So as Bilbo. But Bilbo is more of a brother to me. Going back, I let my walls down every time Frodo and I talked. So I guess he saw the real me. Well, I was really letting him know me even more. I just felt that we have this connection and also, he understands me and sometimes we are both immature (we have the same age, btw). We just get each other. For the passing weeks we were like that. Me ranting, him listening. But he always makes me laugh and the next thing I know is I'm so excited to talk to him on Facebook (even if we are texting like all day!) and it eventually lead to us meeting (the three of us. Bilbo included.) at least twice a week every week, sometimes every other week. And then all I know is that I was looking forward to seeing him and I'm starting to like him. Every time I see him, my feelings towards him gets stronger. I am liking him more and more. D'ya know what I mean? For sure you have experienced this--if you have fallen in love with someone.

Then my friends noticed how close and sweet we both are becoming. They insisted that Frodo likes me too. And I don't want to consider it like that because I am avoiding liking a boy so much that the next thing that can happen is me, falling in love with him and then I'll find out that he doesn't 'love' me the way I love him and boom! I'm trapped again. At that time, I just got out of a trap and Frodo helped me get out of it. I don't want to be trapped again.. Not because of him. So I just enjoyed what we have at that time. As cheesy as it may sound, I treasured the times we spent together. Dear heavens, I even saved his text messages and read it at night!

This went on for 5 months, I think. Then by January this year, it started to fade away. Maybe because we were all busy with our own lives and Bilbo moved so we didn't have the chance to hang out as much as before. We rarely exchange text messages too! I was a bit sad about it but that's how it is. I was glad that they remembered my birthday and demand (YES! DEMAND!) that the 3 of us go out. But it never happened. haha! 

We haven't seen each other from January 2011 til last week. And when I saw them I hugged them. I missed them. As for Frodo, I tried to be casual about the hug. When I was with them last Friday, everything was the same. We (Frodo and I) still have those immature moments. And Bilbo (btw, I told him that I like Frodo) made me sit beside Frodo. I don't know if it's intentional or not but I tried to sit beside him but it's like he has this power over the reserved chair beside him which is just for his stuff. So I had no choice but to sit beside Frodo.

There were 2 moments between me and Frodo that I can't stop thinking about. First was when we were at National Book Store and he bought something and had it gift wrapped there. We stayed there for an hour because the ladies who were doing the gift wrapping thing are too slow. Anyway, it's just that.. it's like before. Me and him that close, making fun of other people, picking up holiday greeting cards and reading them and laugh about it just to pass the time. We even argued whether to put a ribbon on the wrapped gift. He wanted to put a ribbon and I said no and I was backed up by Bilbo and their other friend (who joined us) but Frodo wants what he wants. We just shook our heads in disbelief. :))

The 2nd one was before I went home. They didn't want me to go home yet though they know that I can't stay. Frodo pulled me towards them, sort of like dragging, but I resisted. Then the next thing was a blur. He stopped pulling me and I went a little farther away from them and then Frodo walked towards me and hugged me and I think he also pecked me on the cheek. I was shocked. That was the first time it happened. After him, Bilbo did the same then we bid our goodbyes and I promised that I'll see them next year before I set foot on my dream home. Really, I couldn't stop thinking about that. Sometimes I giggle over it before I sleep and then the saying "You never really stop caring or loving someone whom you loved so dearly" applies.

So that's it! I just wanted to let this all out because I think I'm going mad every time I think about this before I doze off. And I hope to God that HE (Frodo) doesn't find this post! Or I'll die.

-F.M.W.

Two. Months.

I've been planning to study in England and well.. now it will happen. February is the start of the semester next year and this month I'll be arranging other paper works that are needed, visa stuff and payments. Apart from those, I don't have anything to do but bum around.

Since I only have 2 months left, I decided to make some pointers on what to do. I want to spend it productively. :))

• First, I have to organize my things. I have to sort out the things I STILL need and might bring to England and the things that I don't need and throw away. AND MY BOOKS AND CDs!!! My precious babies.. Surely, I won't be bringing them in England so.. I have to keep them safe.
• Second, I need to have my camera fixed! I also need a memory card reader. Oh you know, I'm going to take lots of photos while I'm in my dream home. :)
• Third... I must see some of my friends. Most of those 'some friends' still don't know that my plans in studying in England is now going to happen. Actually, only 1 of them knows that it's finally going to push through and only around 5 of them know about my plans in studying in GBR. hoho! AND.. I am thinking of keeping it a secret to the others. I don't know why. Maybe I want to surprise them or annoy them. It has even crossed my mind to tell them I'm leaving on the day before I leave. hrhr. I know. CRUEL. I just don't want to have dramatic meet ups with my friends and see them sad and all. Especially after all that has happened this year. :)
• Fourth. SHOPPING!! I live in a tropical country and of course, it's ENGLAND!!! It's cold there. And I'll be flying there in February so the weather is.. cold. I need clothes that will keep me warm when I'm there already. My mum's also going to buy me boots. hrhr.
• Fifth. Read as much books as I can while I'm still here.
• Sixth. Download music, movies and tv shows while I'm still here. :D
• Seventh. Abuse my lifetime gym membership and lose weight! haha!
• Eighth. Drive. Just drive. Use our car. Go somewhere. I don't care about the parking issues I have here in our street. I'm leaving in February and I want to just drive and drive because I won't be driving in England.
• Ninth. Watch all the movies I can watch in the cinema. 
• Tenth. Spend mooooore time with my family and relatives. Especially my mom. We barely talked yesterday and today. I don't know if it's finally sunk in that I'm leaving in 2 months and that she's sad or.. I don't know.. Thinking about me leaving her makes me really really sad. Also, after I leave, there's a possibility that my younger brother will leave for U.S. in April or May. So that leaves my mom home alone. My dad is in Japan btw. I'm going to miss her. Whoops! I'm about to weep.

There. I can't think of anything to add anymore and I think these are what I should try to do while I'm still here. I don't want to be sad and all because I'm going to England. It has always been my dream to go there and it will make me happy. Oh by the way, I'll be studying at Bucks New University. They have 2 campuses. One in High Wycombe, Buckinghamshire and the other one is in Uxbridge. And it is near London. lalala. I'm just excited. Also, Olympics will be held in London next year as well as the celebration of Queen Elizabeth's Diamond Jubilee!

Very. Exciting.

-F.M.W.

Christmas in September...?

It's September 1st!

I'm quite excited for this month because most (rather.. all) of my favorite TV shows are going to be back! And there are also new TV shows that I am excited to watch. Actually, I have marked my calendar for the month of September with the TV shows' schedules. 

Other than the TV shows, another thing I'm excited about (every time September comes) is.. Christmas. I know that you think it's early for that but it's already the start of the -ber months and soon enough, it's already Christmas! Days go by faster when we're on the -ber months. I don't know if it's just me but that's what I noticed. And every time it's September, I started to hear Christmas songs and some of the malls here sell Christmas stuffs already. It's making me even more excited.  Add the fact that I do my own countdown before Christmas. haha!

I guess from the last paragraph you can say that Christmas is my favorite Holiday/Season. (Oh wait! Look what came on shuffle! Do They Know It's Christmas by Band Aid! ha! Even my iTunes is excited for Christmas.. Okay.. Going back..) I love this holiday. Every thing is about giving and love and sharing and happiness and the mood just feels so right. Here in my country, I can say that we love Christmas that we prepare for it early. Like.. September! Some prepare earlier than September. Honestly, Christmas decorations bring this light mood around you when you look at them most especially at night, when Christmas lights are on. I remember last year, it was December and I was watching Glee's Christmas episode (where Sue was the grinch) and I had the lights out in the living room and only the Christmas lights were open. It was a.. happy moment for me. It is very melodramatic, believe me, I know. But it's just how I felt that time and as I've said, Christmas decors (more on Christmas lights) bring this light mood around you where you just feel so happy and thankful and content.

What is even more exciting preparing for this holiday is the shopping. When my mum was still working, she would text me to meet her in the mall and we'll shop together. Not just to buy stuffs for me and for her and for the house but also for her friends. It was fun. You can feel the Christmas rush and it's like... every thing is on sale! Then we'll go home around 8pm or 9pm carrying numerous bags! Fun times. I also enjoy wrapping gifts. It's tedious but I like it. Strange, I know. 

And when I am at home, I listen to Christmas songs and watch movies where the setting is in a Christmas holiday (Love Actually!!) or there's a scene in that movie where it's Christmas. Believe me, that will make me happy. :))

See how time will go faster starting this day. Before you know it, the news will already be doing the Christmas countdown and other Christmas-related stuffs, and.. before you know it, you'll find yourself shopping with everyone who hasn't bought gift for their loved ones yet. Christmas rush!

Christmas countdown. 115 days before Christmas!

-F.M.W.

One Day...

Well.. I was hoping to watch it alone. But my mum seems so shocked at the idea of me watching a movie by myself in the cinema. (good gracious! I'm twenty-two years old, mum!) So, I asked her if she wanted to watch it, too. She asked what it's about and who the actors are. I think it was because 'Anne Hathaway' is in the film that made her want to watch it. So ,yeah, I watched it with my mum.

I was really looking forward to this movie 2 months ago when I read a synopsis of it somewhere, and found out that it's based from a book by David Nicholls, and I had high hopes for this film especially because I read the book just last week (though I bought it weeks ago). Anyway.. We had the perfect seats in the cinema and I prefer if no one sits beside me. :))))

Much to my dismay, there were 2 girls who sat beside me. Actually, I don't really mind if there's someone else sitting beside me. I just don't want my seat mates to be really...chatter-y. Annoyingly chatter-y. And they were!!! I heard the other girl saying to her friend about the movie.. Y'know, something happens every year on that same day stuff. So I assumed she read the book and won't be that... shocked in some scenes (most especially where there are nude parts involved). But she didn't read it. And again, much to my dismay, she was reacting so hard with her friend as if she's read it.I'm so mean, but whatever.I had my period this morning, case closed. They kept on saying (to Dexter. I don't even know if they know Jim Sturgess before this film, or if they have seen other films of his) "OHMYGOD HE'S SO GOOD LOOKING!" Blimey! I've heard them say that countless times! And same with Anne Hathaway "OHMYGOD SHE'S SO PRETTY!"Again, countless times they've said that. It just.. annoys me. Okay, we all know Jim's good looking and Anne's beautiful, but just stop it! Can't you just watch? And oh, yes! Their reactions!!!! They get too carried away and can't contain themselves. They'll hit each other, I mean, on the arm or on one's thigh. And.. they are so prude (from what I uhm... observe) I mean, REALLY!!! They were so shocked seeing nude stuffs in that film. as in shocked! -__- They also kept on talking about love stuffs.. 'She lived with Ian for years but then she didn't love him? Ouch.' Emphasis on the OUCH. Best not to comment on that. Basically, they're just chattery friends who can't contain themselves who also happens to sit beside me. I find myself rolling my eyes at some of their comments. 

BUT... I enjoyed the movie. It was a good thing that David Nicholls was the uhm.. screenplayer..? (Is it screenplayer or just screenplay? whatever.) But y'know, some of the scenes in a particular year was really short. I'm like 'That's it?' But it was all good. Anne Hathaway's accent is fine with me and she did good portraying Emma Morley. Her.. uhm... SPOILER ALERT! Her.. demise was really tragic. I know it's gonna happen and that's what I've been excited to see in this film--how they're gonna do that tragic scene. And boy...it left me shocked and shattered and sad. Just like how I felt when I read that part in the book. And for Jim Sturgess... Well.. he was a part of why I wanted to see this film. I love this yet another English man. I loved him in 21 and in Across the Universeand.. I just had this feeling that he'll do really great in this film. And so he did!! And.. YEAH. HE'S SO FREAKIN' GOOD LOOKING, OKAY? Fit for Dexter, the Golden Boy (according to Ian Whitehead). He was so great acting out Dexter's ways.. being drunk and drugged and high and wasted.. Just as how I've imagined Dexter in the book. And Ian!!! OHMYGOD. I didn't expect that Ian would look that way. He looks kinda funny to me.  I also didn't expect to see Georgia King there as Suki. I was like 'OOH! SHE WAS IN WILD CHILD AND TORMENTED!!" lolol. And Sylvie.. boy, do I hate that character. And yeah.. she was okay. I mean, Romola Garai (Sylvie) really made me hate that character even more. Convincing. Well done.

So.. that was what happened to me this afternoon. My One Day movie experience! :))

OH! I just would like to share this quote from Ian Whitehead when he spoke with Dexter.. God, this was really touching.

She made you decent, and in return you made her so happy, so happy, and I will always be grateful to you for that. 

I remembered that in the book, Ian wrote Dexter a letter and I cried on that part. It was the most touching part ever. I just couldn’t cry at the cinema when I heard that.

And… lastly.. I found this gif here in tumblr. To whoever made this gif, well, hi! And thanks for making this gif. I love this gif.

And.. A lot more gifs..

P.S.

This film does have a lot of lessons to teach us. Particularly, you know… Dexter’s life. Good God, this book and film will always be one of my favorite! Go read it!

Thanks for reading. (that is if someone really read this thing.)
gifs are not mine.

-F.M.W.

Short blurts

It's that time of the month again where my emotions are heightened. I'm having "THOSE" times again. I feel lazy. My bossoms hurt. I just want to eat... and eat... and eat... and be a couch potato. 

Today, I woke up at 9:35am. I slept last night at 12mn--past 12mn. So waking up at past 9am is just okay. I ate breakfast, turned the TV on and passed on the E! Channel. I am just so happy that our cable now has this channel. I tuned in and I was surprised that they have that great line-up. I mean... I KNOW that E! Channel has great shows but I never thought that their line-up will be THIS great that I tuned in up to 3pm. And now, I'm watching Glee Season 2 re-runs. The episode wherein Kurt's dad had a heart attack and Finn have this grilled Cheesus and it's really making me hungry right now. So... I'm finishing this blurt fast and I'll be a couch potato. The lazy song is applicable to me now.

DON'T JUDGE.

-F.M.W.