"I pledge to read the printed word."

WOW!

It's been a while since I blogged. Actually, I was pretty busy doing nothing but reading. Every week, I am reading something. I have never loved reading so much not until now.

I love to read. I've always loved reading. When I was a kid, my mom would always let me read newspaper and then tell her what I understood. Of course, she'll let me read the easy-to-understand-kind-of-news. I was a kid then! Then, she bought me books. Fairy tale books. Short children stories. AND I LOVED IT. I tried to read everything in that thick book and even re-read my favorite stories because I want to get out of reality and be in the story I'm reading. It's like traveling.

As I was growing up, I ask my mom to buy me some books. I'd settle for Sabrina, the teenage witch books then 'cause I love that show. And every year, in our school, there is a book fair and I'll always look at what kind of books they have. I remember buying Sweet Valley High novels. And remembered hating Libby so much. :)) Then on my 6th grade, I had my very first book report. It should be a classic novel. And I remembered picking up Heidi in the library. From there, I started loving classic novels. And as I entered high school, there were a lot of classic novels we discussed on my English class. And.. I don't know but I'm just fascinated with everything classic. They're all very good, be it music or stories or anything. It's.. great.

As I go along high school, I didn't have the time to buy and read more books. I was busy with school and I am exploring stuffs. It's like there's a lot going on. :)) But when I have the time, I read. BUT.. It was more of fan fictions when I was in High School. I even wrote fan fictions then. 

Then I entered College. I REALLY DIDN'T HAVE THE TIME TO READ. Seriously. The only books I read was... Tuesdays With Morrie (book report, Philosophy class), Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's stone, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and the Twilight Series when I was in my senior year. That's all. If I was 'busy' in High School, I was dead busy in College.  The only books I get to read are my Nursing books. :/ 

And now.. I read a lot. I think it is to make up for the 'years' I lost not reading. It all started last April 2011. It was a holy week and before the malls close down on Maundy Thursday and Good Friday, I decided to read something. And then I picked up Fallen by Lauren Kate. From there, I got addicted and on the next week, I bought its sequel, Torment. After that, I researched about that novel, even becoming a fan of it on facebook and then I saw someone said 'The Mortal Instruments series.' I researched for it and I was intrigued by it. So.. I hunted it in the bookstores and I had a hard time looking for it, actually. I kept seeing The Mortal Instruments: City Of Fallen Angels and realized it was the fourth and latest book. Then I found a boxed TMI series. It has the first three books and without a doubt, I purchased it. I didn't go and buy the fourth book but I found a replacement for that. I saw Clockwork Angel and realized that the author of it is also the author of TMI. So that day, I bought the first three books of TMI and Clockwork Angel. By then, I was happy. :)) I was busy reading day and night. But before I started Clockwork Angel, I bought the fourth book of TMI. I was completely happy! :))

After I finished all of those, I kept on researching for more good books to read. I came across My Name Is Memory by Anne Brashares. I was kind of.. curious about this because the lead characters' name is the same with the Fallen Series. Daniel and Luce (Lucy in My Name Is Memory) and they were like star crossed lovers and Daniel knew Lucy for a looooooong time and was in love with her since then and HE never forgets her. I bought it and it was good. Now, I'm waiting for its sequel. I know there will be. It's a major cliffhanger in the end. :)) And after reading that, there came Passion, the third book in Lauren Kate's Fallen series. Before I started reading it, I re-read Fallen and Torment first. :)) And after I read Passion, which is so awesome, I already have Hush, Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick. I, again, had a hard time looking for it in the bookstores but.. they're not just about to go out of stock on me 'cause I have to read it. I read it last week and before I finished reading it, I purchased its sequel, Crescendo. I am about to finish it but I figured that it could wait for the night. I enjoy reading at night. It's when my imaginations are really good. :)

There are a lot of good books to read that are in line for me. FIRST OF ALL, I GOTTA HAVE THE HUNGER GAMES TRILOGY. And I know that sooner or later, I'll have it and I can't wait. I don't think it's gonna happen after I finish Crescendo because I have .pdf files of The Vampire Academy (which has 6 books, therefore, I have 6 .pdf files of it) and Halo. mmhmmm.. 7 more! I am just so excited every time I read YA novels. These are the things I missed when I was in College. 

STILL TO READ:

The Five People You Meet In Heaven

The Vampire Academy Series

Halo

The Immortal Series

One Day

Across The Universe

Silence

Harry Potter books 4 upto 7

The Super Sad True Love Story

Prophecy Of The Sisters

The Wolves of Mercy Falls Series

Born at Midnight

Divergent

...and a lot more.. :D

-F.M.W.

Will's Letter

I found this translation of William Herondale's letter to his parents and sister. Good thing it was translated or I think I'll cry. LMAO! 

Mother, Father and little sister 

Today I’m turning seventeen. I know that writing you means I am going against the law, so I will probably rip this letter when I am done writing it. Like how I did every birthday from seventeen, but I’ll write it anyways to outline the occasion – like someone that every year goes to see a tomb of a dearly beloved. Who knows if you remember today, seventeen years ago, that you have a child? Who knows if you think of me and imagine my life here at the institute in London? I doubt that you can imagine it. Here it’s all different from our house, surrounded by mountains with an immense blue sky and a green that you can lose your eyes in. Here everything is black and gray and brown and the sunsets are painted of blood and smoke. 

Who knows if you worry about the fact that I’m alone or how mother used to do when I am cold and go out under the rain without my hat? Here no one worries about these details. The risk of being killed from one moment to another is very high and the possibility of a cold has no relevance.

Who knows if you knew that I heard you the day you came looking for me, when I was twelve years old. I hid under the bed to keep away the sound of your voice yelling my name out loud, but I heard you. I heard mum because she was looking for her little one. I used to bit my hands until they bled but I didn’t come down. I asked myself often why you guys left me a Nephilim. I don’t know if you believe that they were cruel or cold but to tell you the truth, I didn’t find them like that. 

Charlotte in particular is very gentile with me, without knowing that I don’t merit her attentions. Henry is crazy like a horse, but he’s a really good person. Emma would have laughed a lot with him. There’s little good to say about Jessamine but she’s a none-threat. On the contrary there’s a lot of good to say about Jem. He is the brother that dad says I should have had. Blood of my blood - although we’re not even related. For all that I had to lose in my life, his friendship I have gained. 

By the way, there’s a new arrival at home. Her name is Tessa. Do you know when the clouds of the ocean gather on top of a mountain? There. That gray is the exact color of her eyes.

The last paragraph of his letter... I find it really sweet.

-F.M.W.

The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones Casting

SO... Lilly Collins have been casted as Clary Fray. AND... it's been like a torture to TMI fans as who Screen Gems will cast as Jace Wayland. Last May 31, 2011 (or June 1, here in the PH),  Jamie Campbell Bower have been casted as Jace. 

Of course, many fans of the book reacted. Most of the fans wanted Alex Pettyfer to be Jace. He's like the top choice but according to articles I read, he declined. Then there's the "TOP THREE" contenders: Ed Speelers (Eragon), Leebo Freeman and Jamie Campbell Bower. A lot of fans also wanted Max Irons and lately, posting a photo of him in his "Jace get down", is Ben Stone.

I wasn't there when the book of City Of Bones and the TMI novels started. I was really pretty busy those years what with the licensure examinations review and all. And just this summer, I started reading books because I was so bored of getting on line on my social networking accounts everyday and nothing happens. I, then, started reading the Fallen novels by Lauren Kate and after that, I was curious about this 'The Mortal Instruments' novels so I bought them. And I loved it. And from there, I knew what the hype was all about. It's like the new generation of Harry Potter. Fans are very passionate about it especially that it's going to be made into a movie. They wanted it to be perfect and I'm one of the 'they' btw. :)

So going back, I became... passionate in this YA novels I read particularly TMI. I, personally, wanted Alex Pettyfer to be Jace Wayland. He's perfect for the role. But then, as I've said, he declined. So, the next actor I wanted to play as Jace was Ed Speelers. I really couldn't see Leebo Freeman as him. Neither Jamie Campbell Bower, but he was my next choice after Ed Speelers. Then, Ben Stone.

But things happen and not according to how we wanted it to be. Jamie Campbell Bower was casted as Jace. To be honest, my heart sank when I found out. My Tumblr dash was all about him as Jace. I was in denial at first. And I wanted to rebel against Screen Gems for doing that but what will my rebellion do? Then I started to calm down and read Cassie Clare's tweets and said that JCB (Jamie Campbell Bower) was the perfect Jace. She saw JCB's audition and she said that it was 'unfuckingbelievable.' And with that, I felt okay with it. I have nothing against JCB. I don't hate him. I like him. But y'know, I just wanted what I want and it's just really upsetting if you didn't get what you want. So in the end, I was able to finally accept JCB as Jace. He's a good actor and I know he can pull it through. He just needs to have that heavenly body of Jace  and I think he'll be great.

The 2 main characters have been casted already. Things are going to be... I guess pretty fast from now on. Casting Jace was like a long journey for the pre-production of this film. I can not wait for the other characters to be casted. 

P.S.

Alex Pettyfer will always be my Jace. And I ain't mad that he turned down the role. 

-F.M.W.

Mad Rants

So I'm back. And.. I'll be blogging my rants now. I'm just so... mad. But I'm controlling my wild madness.

It's just so annoying when one lies to you and what's more annoying is when YOU, yourself, find out. Even more maddening, is when one ignores you purposely. I was like "whats wrong with you?" It's just a simple damn question and you cannot respond and I don't know why and also, you're starting to ignore me. It's not like I'm gonna scold you or what. You just have to answer my fucking simple question and if you just did, this would never happen. 

Actually, I think you're making it hard on yourself. You're making more problems with me and it should bother you. Maybe you don't think about what other people think about you but think about it. Somehow it's enlightening to know what others think about you so you can change that part of you which is really.. not so nice. You think you're that lovable and nice--yes, it's true and I see that-- but... deep down, you're just another bad person. Don't get me wrong, everyone has their bad-person-part of themselves. I have that too. And I'm not being biased but I can say that you're just worse than me. You may not realize it. And you might say that I just said that because I am mad. But, no! I am thinking clearly here and this is not just my hormones talking. I would've not blog about my mad rants here if I did not do some observations. 

Don't you, somehow, feel bothered? at all?  Aren't you bothered that you're doing this kind of things to someone who's not worth of this all? We're past the kiddie stage. I remember when we're kids and we just ignore each other just for some petty thing we'd done to each other. And now, we're grown ups! Can't you see? This 'petty' thing should be over by now. Hell, we should've been MATURE enough to handle it. Hello? We're not kiddies anymore. Aren't you aware that we're already adults? Good heavens! Maybe you are an adult--age based-- but emotionally, tsss... nah.. You're just another kiddie who tells an adult to 'back off and let me enjoy ignoring you for this petty thing YOU have done.' Act like an adult, please! Don't have that comeback on me. It's annoying and childish. 

Just so you know, I'm not stupid. I wasn't born yesterday. I KNOW what's going on.You're acting like you're a god. Bitch, please! You're not god. And I think you're trying to imitate someone fabricated. And I THINK THAT'S JUST PLAIN STUPID. 

You ought to know.

-F.M.W.

My Alex

I am in love.

Alex Pettyfer is love! ♥

I've never been more interested in him until now. I didn't know that he was Emma Roberts' love interest in the film Wild Child. AND I've watched that.*sigh* BUT.. I know that it was him on the film I Am Number Four. I've watched that with my mom and I had a slight crush on him then. LMAO!

Recently, I've been obsessed with books and I am currently reading the third book of The Mortal Instruments, the City of Glass. When I finished The first book of that series (City of Bones), I researched on it and found out that it's going to be a film... and they're still on the look out for an actor who will play as my (love) Jace Wayland. And I found Alex's name connected on it. I found out that he's been offered the role but he didn't say (yet) if he's going to accept it. Honestly, I think he should. HE'S the real-life Jace Wayland. He just fits the role. Whenever I read The Mortal Instruments and Jace is in the scene, Alex immediately pops into my mind. HE'S MY JACE. :) And I'm sure he's everyone's Jace too.

Also, I read Fallen novels and it's going to be a movie too! The fans of that novel (mostly) wants him as Daniel Grigori. Personally, Alex is also my choice for that role. Alex has the look of an angel. He's an angel. :)

Okay. Enough about Jace and Daniel. This is about Alex. :D I did some research and I found out that he's just a year younger than me and that HE'S BRITISH! *Squeals* I LOVE BRITISH BOYS!!! I was curious on how he sounds when he speak so I youtube'd him and I found first his guesting on Ellen. Man! He sound so lovely! I melted when I saw him and on that suit and swooned when he spoke. Then Ellen found a way for him to  take his shirt off. She had this I ♥ ellen T-shirt and in the (almost) end part of the interview, he took off his coat and shirt (Ellen helped him too! RAWR!) and there... I DIED. :D He's all the definition of sexy, hot, smokin' etc., etc..

And since then, I am just so in love with him. I did some more research and found out that he was a Burberry model, too. He look so beautiful there.. Well.. HE IS beautiful even if he's not modeling. Just him. I mean.. Alex is just.. incredibly magnificent! If I am just being myself when I talk to my friends, I think they'll be so annoyed with me because for sure, I will talk about Alex... over and over again. haha! Seriously, he's my celebrity boyfriend now. ROFLMAO! And I plan on watching all of his films. :D 

Here are some of his photos as a model of Burberry.

And here are some of his photos (not Burberry related).

There goes my (celebrity) boyfriend. (LMAO!) ♥

He's my Jace Wayland, my choice of Daniel Grigori but... he's my Alex. :D ♥

-F.M.W.

Don't rush!

I felt lighter.

Seriously, after I listened to Get It Right over and over again 2 days ago and blogging about it, it made me feel better. The last thing I said from my last blog seemed so powerful. I was up on my feet after that and I just felt stronger. And I KNEW that whatever this is, I can handle it. Add the fact that a friend of mine told me this,

 I know you're more than capable of handling yourself when it comes to tough things (and tough stains :D) 

I'm just not sure what she meant by tough stains. :)


Anyway. That and the Gospel I listened to last Sunday also helped. 

Let not your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, also in me.

It really made me  a stronger person. And by the way, that is what I've been asking God for a month now ever since this happened. :)

And then yesterday, it surprised me because my friend-turned-enemy about a year and a half ago sent me request... a friend request... on facebook. I couldn't be any more happier! THAT just made my day. I was trying to get things right and she was one of it and I thought she'd declined. I e-mailed her and here I was, hoping that she'll reply but at the same time, expecting that she'll turn me down. I was pretty much a... bitch to her then and her, turning me down, was really expected by me. I was just shocked when she didn't answer my e-mail but right away, she responded by friending me again on facebook. I was on the verge of crying when I saw her request! I was excited, nervous and was almost frantic (in a good way). Upon accepting her request, I immediately sent her a message and she responded! Exchanging messages with her was a relief to me and it's like nothing has changed between us (despite everything that has happened to us and me being a big bitch to her) and I very much like that. 

It seems like everything is falling into place as what I have asked Him. Maybe I was just in a hurry the last time that's why I feel so bad about (almost) everything and He taught me to wait and it was worth it and it reminded me of Jordin Sparks's song One Step At A Time,

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient, waiting
We live and we learn
To take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly and falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen
That we find the reasons why, one step at a time

So.. lesson learned. Don't be too impatient. Everything is gonna happen and IT'S SUPPOSED to happen. We just have to wait and to trust in Him. And of course, pray. It helps. :)

I've never felt lighter... and happier. Thank You.

-F.M.W.

"How many times will it take for me to GET IT RIGHT?"

I LOVE GLEE. They cover songs beautifully. My iTunes are filled with Glee cover songs. But there was one episode this season (Season 2) where the Glee kids wrote their original songs for the regionals in which they won. Anyway, one of it was Get It Right written by Rachel Berry (in the TV show only, of course) after she talked with Quinn about Finn. She was so heart broken and hurt and went home and wrote this song. And on the regionals, she sung this with Brittany and Tina as her back-up vocals. 

It was a good song. Back then when I first heard this, I didn't really liked it as much as I liked Loser Like Me. But just last night, I was having one of those days (or night) feeling like... crap. Maybe it's because of the hormones. I still have my monthly period last night (lol! Is it appropriate to say that in a blog?) and you know, it makes girls really emotional.. And when I say emotional, it's not just sadness.. But.. that was what I felt last night. (Crappy period! -_-)

My mind just suddenly sang this and I, myself, was surprised. I had the urge to open my iTunes but was too lazy to open my laptop and besides, I gotta read. So up to this morning, this was what my head's been singing.-_-

I was emailing a friend of mine when I started to play this and it made me teary eyed. I said somethings to her which made me emotional as the lyrics sunk in. I had to compose myself so I won't start crying. And then I searched for its lyrics and bam! It struck me. I was feeling what Rachel Berry was feeling about (some) things... that she just wanted to fix the wrong things she's done but despite of her trying, she still got it wrong. 

I'm not gonna say anymore. I might end up whimpering. Here's the lyrics to Get It Right.


What have I done?
I wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

Can I start again, with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this

What can you do when you're good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

So I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair!
Yeah, I'll send down a wish and I'll send up a prayer
And then finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when you're good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?


I guess I just have to stop trying...

-F.M.W.